Breathe.....

Its amazing how good something feels, and how much more its appreciated, when you haven't done it in a while. I finally ran! Its been about 4 days, which is a while for me. Before I go on, read the following extremely slowly, breathing in when it says "in", and out when it says "out.", do this in the most calm voice possible:

Iiiiiiin, ooouuuut, iiiiiin, ooouuuut, iiiiin, ooouuuut, iiiiin, ooouuuut, iiiiin, ooouuuut, iiiiin, ooouuuut, iiiiin, ooouuuut, iiiiin, ooouuuut, iiiiin, ooouuuut...

Don't you feel relaxed?! This is what I say while I'm running. I hope you can see why I am so in love with it?!

Today I went numb, I didn't feel anything except the cool air and my feet against the pavement, I couldn't hear anything except my breathing and my mind going iiiiin, ooouuuut! I love running! I can concentrate on my breathing and forget about the fact that my best friend moved away, that I have a terrible self image today, that the client yelled at me, that tomorrow is going to be busy! Its not even that most of these things go somewhere in the back of my mind, they actually disappear! And the thoughts that don't disappear, I look at them in a different light. So my best friend moved away, but I will see him soon, and that makes me so happy! So tomorrow is a busy day, but its going to be productive, it will go quickly! And my self image, well, its good right now, I feel good!

When I'm breathing, and in my mind I'm saying, "iiiiin, ooouuuut, iiiiin, ooouuuut," its the only thing that can occupy my mind, nothing else can! I forget about how something so simple, can bring me so much peace and serenity! Its amazing!